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I know I say that A LOT.
but I am kinda really serious.
I put my emotions out there
and they only get played with.
I want for once someone to step up
and actually open up.
people are really creep too.
I can NOT wait till I'm outta here.
I'll be out with NO regrets
about who I'm leaving behind either.
Idc how close I am to you.
I'm so over the bs and drama.
It's me, myself and I right now.
it's like I'm not myself.
I've been very distant too.
it's startin to almost scare me.
I hope I go back to being me.
to the point everything seems fake?
It's like a movie in your head constantly playing.
the last time you kissed, the way he smiles at you
seems like it doesn't matter he hurt you
and for one split second you wish you had it back
but then reality sets back in, he has her now.
everything that once happened is in the past.
no more going back, no more second chances,
no more smiles, hugs, kisses, or late night calls.
It's all over and done with.
The only good thing is no more lies.
You can finally heal the damage.
Wounds begin to close, no more fake smiles.
for once you might be able to be happy and life for yourself.
That is until days like these come
where you don't know if you can deal with seeing him.
but babygirl, you're strong, keep that head up.
from having a knife shoved so deep in it.
all thanks to you ; every lie - a little deeper
every broke promise - further and further.
i can't even cry anymore, its not worth it.
you want to run back
to the one that's hurt you the most.
maybe it's because
deep down you still love them
but you're not ready to let go
for good, forever.
i want to know what it's like to feel like a princess.
i wanna be the only girl that matters.
i don't want to be the one to text him first or call him.
i want him to want to talk to me.
i want him to leave me cute texts to wake up too.
i won't have to question whether or not he wants to be with me.
he'll be able to talk to me about anything.
he'll know that when i say i'm fine, i don't mean it.
he'll make me laugh at any given time.
each day will be like we fell in love all over again.
we'll be able to be on the phone for hours and sometimes not say a word.
he'll know that my favorite color changes from day to day and that most people annoy me.
he'll understand when i say i don't want to talk about it and stay with me until i do.
when i'm sad, he'll bring me dark chocolate and vitamin water to cheer me up.
he'll do whatever he could to try and see me.
when i get mad, he'll sing me my favorite song.
he'll wipe away my tears. and most of all when he says 'i love you'
i'll know it came from deep down and for once, someone meant it
Love now, like you'
Appre
Forge
And smile
We lose so that we can appre
We get hurt so that we can grow & becom
& even thoug
You lost her for a reaso
that there
waiti
someo
what makes
why you love one song,
he'
yet you'
with the wrong
boyfriend thinks he knows it all.
"friends" treat me like crap.
God is always good though (:
got an old friend back :D
and my mom is still cool.
can't wait for June 2O11!
i hate sluts. why do they always get everything they want?
you can't have a real relationship with someone who has a new guy every other week.
guys still suck. why do they make us feel like crap ?
i just want to know that! boyfriends are overrated and so are best friends.
i'm sick of everything. honestly i just want to pack up and move.
nobody would miss me. i honestly think a LOT of people would be happy.
whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
i mean i'm happy but there are times that i don't want him.
i stay with him b/c i'm probly pms-ing or something.
i'm continuing to lose more and more "best friends"
i feel second best to ugly whores and idk why.
i mean they can have a picture, thats way ugly and they look like a prostitute
and it'll have 57435743 cmnt and i'll have a pretty decent picture with like 2 cmnts.
and everyone cmnts the other picture saying
"omg you're so pretty" blah blah blah BS !
i don't get it. whatever, i guess that's life.
i'm getting over the fact that sabe and i don't talk more and more !
i guess that feeling i had about not missing jess when she left
was getting me ready for when she kicked me out of her life.
my mother and i have been getting along [:
my grandfather isn't doing so good. but we have him in our prayers.
my uncle is a dick, what's new. aha i don't get that.
brianna is leaving me in less than a month. :|
i'm gonna miss her ! i'll have only like 2 best friends down here.
but things might change, and i'm hoping they do.
peacing out <3
she does good in school but that's nothing
she has no "true" friends she can't trust anyone
relationships never work out she wonders why
she feel like the only one out there
she sees everyone in love and happy
they don't have to fake a smile
and they seem to have real friends.
maybe all of this is a delusion what if...
she isn't the only one who isn't happy
what if everyone elses friends are all fake
and the ones they love never worked out
what if she's not the only one out there
but everyone else is just too fake to know themselves
and she's just sick of hiding her feelings for once.
all she wants is someone to love her
make her feel like the only girl around
and have it real ; but that's the difference
between reality and dreams.
you've hurt her more than you'll ever imagine.
she loves you more than you'll ever believe.
you want her more than you'll ever let known.
she's given up more than she's ever done before.
you'll never know more than the blind.
I have to remin
That if you wante
you would
And hold onto what keeps
They take a place
And make you smart
But we never
And somet
That gives
